I was explaining to KL about surrealism as an art movement and as I was thinking about my options in life and that fork in the road, I remember a movie i watched from years ago. I liked Big Fish, because it was pure surrealism - it was a movie that toed that thin line between fantasy, lies, and reality. I am not entirely sure what this movie meant to me, but it reminded me of a few things:
1) I am drawn to art in a metaphysical way that’s hard to convey to someone else in words, but it’s ok because what other people see as inconsistent and illogical in art is to me the exact beauty of it. I am entirely comfortable with - or should I say prefer - (seeming) chaos, uncertainty, unexplained nuances because it gives me the chance to navigate those ideas and images with my own compass and interpretation. i like open-endedness and endless debates so movies with indefinite endings don’t bother me. (but i do have a certain threshold for nonsensical movies that pretend to be arthouse - i usually diss those with no relent)
2) You know those movies where main characters do stupid things like follow a bunny down a rabbit hole, eat something that shrinks her and then follow the same bunny around? Or the other where the character follows an iffy looking witch down a deserted path leading to nothingness and end up having the adventure of his life? Those characters who are the main protagonists of any good fantasy/sci-fi movie but might be the outcast of society, victim of crime and deception in real life. I am somehow predisposed towards choosing adventure, taking risks and making leaps of faith as the years pass. I suspect it might have to do with my strict upbringing and structured life path thusfar that gives me the confidence to take risks, knowing that I can always bounce back and get back on the safe road to mundanity. Or it could simply be a suppressed part of me bursting out to take risks and to venture into the unknown. Or it could be a function of age where risk-taking is the norm. Whatever it is, it’s hard for me to be satisfied with the safe road to security - I need a good challenge, an awesome adventure or simply room to explore uncharted domains.
3) Random thought that came with remembering the title of the movie: At this point in life, I would like to be a small fish in the sea than a big fish in a pond - because the small fish can only have enough space to grow in the sea. the pond is a little too crammed.
4) my indication of a good decision is one where i'm listening to my heart and there's an adrenaline rush to my brain after deciding. keep me away from casinos hor.
1) I am drawn to art in a metaphysical way that’s hard to convey to someone else in words, but it’s ok because what other people see as inconsistent and illogical in art is to me the exact beauty of it. I am entirely comfortable with - or should I say prefer - (seeming) chaos, uncertainty, unexplained nuances because it gives me the chance to navigate those ideas and images with my own compass and interpretation. i like open-endedness and endless debates so movies with indefinite endings don’t bother me. (but i do have a certain threshold for nonsensical movies that pretend to be arthouse - i usually diss those with no relent)
2) You know those movies where main characters do stupid things like follow a bunny down a rabbit hole, eat something that shrinks her and then follow the same bunny around? Or the other where the character follows an iffy looking witch down a deserted path leading to nothingness and end up having the adventure of his life? Those characters who are the main protagonists of any good fantasy/sci-fi movie but might be the outcast of society, victim of crime and deception in real life. I am somehow predisposed towards choosing adventure, taking risks and making leaps of faith as the years pass. I suspect it might have to do with my strict upbringing and structured life path thusfar that gives me the confidence to take risks, knowing that I can always bounce back and get back on the safe road to mundanity. Or it could simply be a suppressed part of me bursting out to take risks and to venture into the unknown. Or it could be a function of age where risk-taking is the norm. Whatever it is, it’s hard for me to be satisfied with the safe road to security - I need a good challenge, an awesome adventure or simply room to explore uncharted domains.
3) Random thought that came with remembering the title of the movie: At this point in life, I would like to be a small fish in the sea than a big fish in a pond - because the small fish can only have enough space to grow in the sea. the pond is a little too crammed.
4) my indication of a good decision is one where i'm listening to my heart and there's an adrenaline rush to my brain after deciding. keep me away from casinos hor.