i believe, that for any amount of evil and pain
there is an equal amount of good and joy
whether the evil take the form of natural disasters or Man
the harmony of the world will always be in balance,
although it doesn't make the suffering easier to bear.
the world doesn't get worse
evil doesn't get stronger..
it is US who are getting weaker.
even though we always tell others and ourselves that we are stronger than yesterday
the truth is we are only more apt to put on a braver front than yesterday.
it's OK to fear, but we choose to pretend we are unfazed.
then we crumble ni the face of evil.
i watched the news yesterday
and there was this Singaporean at the airport cancelling his flight to Phuket.
He said sth like,
"if i were still young and strong, without family i will take the plane down to Phuket and experience it u know. experience crisis. be there in the face of crisis."
Mister,
people are dying there and u are seeing it as an INVALUABLE FIELD TRIP?
incredible.

Look What You've Done
"Take my photo of the world if it just wouldn't sing for you
all that's left has gone away
nothing left for you to do

Look what you've done
you've made a fool of everyone
oh well
it seem like such fun
until you lose what you had won"

My dear "mentally weak" friend:
There was once I felt so despondent and emotionally stressed out, I msged a friend:

Sometimes the world pulls you from all directions
Stretching you thin
Yet expect you to be ok

He replied
You should learn to relax, think of someone you like
Listen to some songs…
It helps…

Feeling better, I said:
I guess every storm comes and passes.
I'll try to keep myself dry while it’s pouring
He then replied:
Well I guess you have to find a shelter then.
Home is the best shelter to keep you dry.

I think home is a 2 way concept.
It's your refuge,
But in turn,
You are your home's refuge too.
Stay strong
because you are much more than that.

i've been left behind by the world
is it my fault
have i been superficial
have i been hypocritical
have i hurt anyone unwittingly

have i fallen into the lower realm
or have i always belonged here

the scars really hurt and i still feel lost
the time doesn't pass and i can't move on

have i opened up too much
bit by bit i built reliance
bit my bit i let lose the rein
bit by bit i allow the lash of the whip
bit by bit i lose myself

realm by realm i allow myself to fall

every ship needs an anchor
sometimes it's so hard to sail on alone
it's so hard to collide with other ships or icebergs for that matter,
on stormy nights
and forgive yourself for it

no ship would want to be an emotional wreck
but it's so hard to remain civil, cordial
when the sailors themselves are drunk
who did not even want to be on the voyage
who are escaping to nowhere

who came up with the maritime rules?

When we get hurt, part of our soul dies away
It transforms into tears
And escape from us
Because we can only take so much hurt

I think I lost my friend
She said friends are functional, what's the point of keeping old friends when they cannot be there anymore
I said if there was anything she could call or we could meet for lunch someday
She said she din like to talk non stop during our conversations
I said someone has to listen in a conversation and I would take over if she felt tired
She said she din like talking to me because I reminded her of the past
I said she had changed
She said she knew and she hoped her friends would not be too bitter about it
I said one day I'll move on and understand her current state of mind
She said maybe

She came along
She told me friendships last
She taught me friends are people to brave through storms with you
She felt that the most touching thing about friendship was that friends made a difference in your life and you'll never be the same ever again
She gave new meaning to HAHA
She said one thing you could believe in was miracles
She taught me everyone has their own magic including me
She said friendship was about giving and giving

I think
You give a part of yourself, a part of your memory, a place in your heart
Away to every close friend you make
That is why they are the ones who can really hurt you so deep

there are alot of things that we thought we knew
we could be so certain that we have found the answer
we could be so adamant as to what we have to or should do
yet once we procrastinate
rationality sets in and we realise
we were too idealistic
too optimistic
too confident that we could change the world we live in

i thought i had made up my mind to take another path at the crossroads yesterday
i thought i finally knew what i wanted
and found who i wanted to meet for a long long time
but after thinking about it
it is not the case.
maybe i painted too rosy a picture
maybe i read too much into things
maybe i was being too sensitive

for the first time i really dunno what to think feel or do