dream dress

i fell in love with a dress. absolutely indulgent but this Kate Moss (Topshop) Lace Peasant Dress is worth the 200 bucks. I've gone to the shop twice but haven't bought it due to strong objections from my sisters that it's overpriced. The pic doesn't do it much justice really. At first sight I loved the ultra huge butterfly sleeves and I knew I would get this dress at whatever cost after I tried it on at the shop. I'm even thinking about the excuses for my sisters already.

Parallel universe

It's been a year since graduation, starting work and tumbling into a r/s. All positive developments no doubt, for i'm not one who lives in her yesterdays. When today passes, it brings with it the potentiality and hope of a tomorow. And yet I sense a certain unhappiness and discontent. There's so much more satisfaction I can feel within my expansive soul, so much more beauty and song in life, and yet I am entrapped within the security of the now. It sucks to live in the present, knowing that I'm deliberately holding on and spacing out now, rather than to continue my quest of moving on to work on a hopeful future - by continually seeking to inspire and enrich myself. Quite honestly, I feel out of my element and fretful that the malleable and impressionable me should get used to this foreign element! Perhaps this is the function of a conventional worklife, when a young graduate has to concede she no longer has the freedom of her schedule on weekdays (exigencies of work) or weekends (too tired - externalities of work). But sometimes, I evaluate my life a little more dispassionately, and realize that there are concrete things in my life that contribute to that discontent. I look through photos of friends' weddings and their sincere joy and love for each other speaks to the ache inside my heart, that I can no longer ignore completely.