Saturday, 29 March 2008

Five Loaves and Two Fishes



A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small


You know, I was just sad with my 5 loaves and 2 fishes. I asked God why He gave me such little capacity; why i could write well but my critical analysis skills lacking. Why other people were better than me at excelling at what they do, whilst i seem to drift a little. Why other people had the endurance to sleep little and accomplish much whilst I am cranky and distracted when I'm hungry or sleepy. Why can't I be the epitome of efficiency and shut out people around me when I want to get work done? I heard this song and that sadness gave way to realization that my God is loving and I am precious in His sight. What He delights in is not how well i perform relative to others, because the five loaves and 2 fishes were exactly what He had portioned for me. Every idiosyncrasy, every strength, every weakness, every smile and frown He knows, because He formed me. What He delights in, is I offering up my five loaves and two fishes in trust, even when I don't know what He will do with it, exactly when I know that what i have is small. God is much bigger than i think He is.