Tuesday, 12 February 2008

gaiety.

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another bombshell fell in my heterosexual world today. yes, with no foreshadowing, another friend admitted to me his "gaiety" like he was talking about an ulcer on a typical day. I wasn't shocked, but truly thankful that he had chosen to share with me though we haven't been super duper close. yet i know that it is a privilege that he had trusted me to confide in me, that i might intercede and pray. I remember when Kel told me he was homosexual, it was 3am over MSN when we were slogging out our guts for a project. It came as a huge surprise and through his experience i learnt alot about the homosexual community. God placed a special burden on my heart to pray for him and to let him know that God and i love him regardless. Hate the sin but love the sinner was the message that God taught me. And today's encounter once again reminded me of Kel and i wish to meet up and catch up on how he's doing.

I think being female and more attuned to the emotional realm keeps me from condemning homosexuals, simply because there is a distance (i'm safe from being the target of affections) and there can be room for empathy. I believe that homosexuality, like adultery, starts not from lust, but from an emotional root. Of wanting to be accepted, wanting to be loved, wanting to be understood plus the fear of rejection (either by opposite sex or spouse) which drives people to go down the path of sin. My friend today told me he's acutely aware that his homosexual tendencies has to do with his growing up with a distant father and lack of male company. God's Word keeps him from the physical sin but his heart and mind wanders from time to time.

There was a tone of resignation as he recounted his growing up years. The sort of resignation that must resound in my voice when i talk about MY growing up years, relations with my mum and my resulting fluctuating sense of self worth. But i'm slowly learning to get that resignation out of my mind and unlearn alot of lies that i allowed myself to believe. Same lesson - Romans 12:2, and being worthy of the calling and new life i have received. What a lie that i can never transcend my past and my own thoughts and ways! i truly pray that the hearts of many will be enlightened to see what Christ offers.

I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and his incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is like the working of his mighty strength, which he exerted in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly realms, far above all rule and authority, power and dominion, and every title that can be given, not only in the present age but also in the one to come.

Ephesians 1:17-21