Alan Fleischer's Time Exposures.

a great day out at SAM again, this time with kel because i was hoping the photographer could shed some light and give me a different perspective on Alan Fleischer's work. And to find out how he's doing. He arrived unceremoniously 1hr late with profuse apologies but i was feeling pretty ok. I've gotten used to lateness because i myself live with a internal clock slower than others by a couple of hours. I usually feel i have eternity to live, what's with standing on the NY streets for 1 hr to look at someone else's portrait being drawn by an artful hand? these things are the colours of my world and things that i remember well, much better than the myriad of colours in the Nine West shops. I love the arts and ideas. of representation and of the human psyche. We ended up catching up and talking about architecture and different cities over drinks overlooking Esplanade and the cool night air softly playing with my hair. the serenity of the city lights.

Sometimes i fear getting lost in my thoughts. sometimes i fear i stare so long into eternity that i would miss out the present and fail to live it to the maximum as i should. There are big things alright, but small things like exercise and appointments and grocery shopping and errands, i forget and let slip too often. Other times i suddenly take a look at myself inside out and panic that i have overlooked something important that will jeopardize my well being as an earthly being. Josh uploaded a photo we took yesterday and my first thought was: i think it's time to exercise and reduce those big arms. Jesus loves me whether or not i've huge arms, whether or not i have thunder thighs, whether or not i have unruly hair, whether or not i'm cleft-lipped, whether or not i'm blind, whether or not i am HIV-positive, whether i am fair or dark skinned but i still disappoint myself but not loving myself just as i am, most of all the time. there's always something i'm seeking to change or improve upon, which is a silly thing if i remember to KIV the fact that God made me and there's nothing i can do to make it better because i am perfect and good in His sight.