i frequently wonder at how some people are remembered as people of their word. that their word is their contract and never back out of a verbal agreement even if they lose a limb or two. appointments are adhered to, promises are kept and punctuality is as natural as the air they inhale.

and i will then quite naturally despair at my lack of commitment and trustworthiness. i could say that it's an airy-ness about my personality, or a tendency to keep my options open, but if i remove all the sugar coating that protects my ego, i just have a huge character flaw. i often say things and forget them, i change my mind more often than i change my clothes (that's very frequent, mind you), i make promises that i don't keep.

my spaced out behaviour has irritated a fair number of friends and i think it might be soon before i'm left with none.

sigh.