i got myself a Toshiba at the IT fair, and it's the epitome of beauty with intelligence. awesome buy. I think i'm obsessed with getting in touch with information and knowledge due to the lack of an exciting thought life. but i'm working on that, i promise.
i went to borders today and picked up 2 graphic introductions to Rousseau and Kierkegaard.. i was a little hesitant to lower my capacity for deep philosophical thought by compromising complex language for illustrations, but i shouldn't be ashamed. pictures are alot easier to digest when you're stuck on a crowded bus struggling to stand, breathe and trying to read a dead philosopher while heading for work. i ought to be able to cut myself some slack. btw, Rousseau (left) looks a little like my favourite political philosopher professor (who in turn regards Rousseau as his fav philosopher). i think it's the combination of a handsome intellectual aura and that slight rebellion in his eyes. that refusal to be content with mainstream society with its norms and moral ethics. but because of that, both men seem to have struggled a lot in their quest for happiness and fulfillment.
and i have found myself to struggle more now as well. i think it's the symptom of moving on from the safe bed of aspirations to the more pressing test of living one's life, for real. of making decisions from the book i will read to the job i will apply for. from choosing to believe that all my inclinations are positive for my personal development to the admission that my weaknesses define me alot more than i thought. these thoughts are making me more sober and more aware of the passing of time. time is short and i have decisions to make, a calling to fulfill. May i not miss the signs.